Welcome to Joshua’s World.

Things that I have fulfilled or going to fulfill in my wish list:

- Memorable wedding

- Pass all modules at first try and achieve at least 1 HD for each major!

- Graduate and attend convocation in Perth

- Officially wear mortarboard and regalia with pride!

- Graduation photo shoot with my family (include hubby)

- Pursue Bachelor of Commerce (I’m in it!)

- Lots of Chanel earrings (Got it!)

- HSBC card (Got it!)

- Chio Chanel reading glasses (Got it!)

- Burberry watch (Got it!)

- iPhone 4G (Got it! Coming on my birthday!)

Imagine how much we have spent this month! Gosh. Well… its all worth the amount as to celebrate double occasion which is my 22nd birthday as well as to celebrate my hard work been paid off that for the first time in my life I actually survived through the painful first trimester of my uni days that I have never had the courage to pick up to handle 4 major modules within 3 months plus! Yes! I made it with pride! On my birthday, hubby say that he would bring me to feast for god knows how many consecutive days or maybe weeks as to replenish my energy that has been used on. =) Guess its his excuse of wanting to indulge in our “back-then” usual meals. Bad for me because this means I would be fatter and fatter after each session. =( Never mind! After these then make plans.. Alrights shall head to bed and wake up early tomorrow to have breakfast with hubby and lunch together.

Nights.

As title says 2187 days together with my dearest and in few days time its our 6th year anniversary and in less than a month’s time is going to be dearest 27th birthday. As its a weekday and he just started his work not long ago so not nice to take leave so soon. However, if possible I’m going to spend the evening with him. Dearest says that in about six months time he promise me to take our photos together. Not sure if I could believe him as its don’t know the how many times he promise me something and not happening..

Right now in class waiting for lecturer to arrive and start the lecture and absorbing knowledge as much as possible. Sigh. I simply hate Monday and Tuesday as classes are just too hectic. Imagine Monday evening I have class from 7pm to 10pm and next morning I have class from 9am all the way to 1pm. I just have no time for assignments as tomorrow is due date for tomorrow’s module. How am I suppose to complete on time? Gosh~ Might need to stay up to finish up tonight. I just hope not and complete before midnight.

Alright got to update some other time while I catch up with my assignments.

Been some time since I last update this domain…

Life has been hectic but also meaningful as I have squeezed myself to make it through the Curtin University a week past the dateline as my previous school was slow in the administrative procedures… However, I’m grateful to be in the current position I’m in now.

Though time travel down to school is longer than before and I’m going to spend more money on cab rather than trains and bus but come to think of it now, I think I still make the right choice of choosing something I prefer over location. I have no regrets making this choice. But instead, I’m grateful that I choose to continue my studies over marriage.

At least I know now I’m happier because I have better knowledge than before and even during times that are tough I know I’m going to achieve something at the end. I’m glad that both of my parents are very supportive towards my decision and my dearest has slowly grown up to a man.

Dear has start work for almost a week and seems like he’s very happy with his choice. I’m happy for him too… As long as he’s happy I will be happy too… After going through so much, I tamed myself down to reflect and realize that I have always been expecting returns from my contributions. And now, I consistently going to remind myself of giving out more but expect lesser. In this case, I will live happier…

Definitely, during this period of changes I will get disappointments, get in touched with long-last super good friend and now turned into uni friends cum stranger-like feel (Its like we were so close to each other in our childhood days and now seems to be distance) and unhappy such as different characters of people that I have to face and the challenges that I have faced but I know with all these that I’m going to overcome will turn me into a stronger and tougher person than before.

I’m going to treasure everything I have now and hold my faith firmly and not letting go… I know where I’m heading to and accomplish my stuffs.

3 words. Happy like fuck!

I’ll perform at 110%!

Went for interview today, was so called short listed loh. Went for interview and waited 2 hours plus before I was called. During the interview apparently I did not even meet their minimum working exprience. Stupid hr canot even shortlist people correctly.

Zzzz

On the second day of Lunar New Year, I actually blew my top off in the family. Its something I feel he’s trying to test my limit of patience. Over the past few days I have been very unhappy with the things he did. I couldn’t express out even I did also to my parents and all I get was just defenses from my mother. Finally, the moment he stepped on the button and I just explode almost immediately. Lucky, dearest was there to control the situations otherwise I couldn’t imagine how things will turn into.

I’m furious on how much I need recognition from my mother. All these years what had happened to me and what I have today is an achievement for me. I just need time to prove more things. I have no intentions to upset my parents especially my father but I have no choice. I do not know any where or any method to vent my frustrations, anger, worries or whatever you called. When I always accumulate I tend to have headaches or even stomach pains. What can I do? When things is unsettled at the end of the day? I have to keep quiet and endure or just don’t bother. I do have self-respect and that’s why I have to bother. If I do not bother I will not even show any form of expression.

At times I just hate dearest for not standing same line as I do to consider my point of view and consider my fault. But what can I do? I’m just so straightforward and I have difficulties in expressing myself. I admit myself that I can be straightforward till offend people unknowingly.

Actually, I do not like to talk to him or do not like any of his comment. As long as he speaks, will just irks me. Because the thought he beating up a defenseless sister is just unbearable.” How can a brother just be freely after beaten up the sister for not just once without any punishment?!” The images of him beating me keep flashing back to me reminding me he is just a jerk! How I wish justice can be done from the start but unfortunately police will not interfere with family issues though what he did is considered to be criminal offense.

Maybe its really time that I should just try to implement what dearest says. I know I will be living in hell at first but I left with no choice to live on.

Hopefully, end of this week I will receive good news from my current school in order for me to register myself for the March intake. Can’t wait for any longer I need to have the paper and get myself a good career!

Now on the train going to dearest place and just woke up 2 hours ago. Slept almost 12hours wanted to sleep more but dearest keep calling my house end up so unwillingly to wake up.
Yesterday got home early as I had gastric pain and daddy came to pick mr up with mummy asking me why I got home early. =_=! Not necssary I have to be back home late ma. Anyway I’m going to reach and pack lunch for dearest and myself. Ciao

I just hope everything will falls in the right place, right module, right topic and right time for both of my papers!